Again

How have you been?

Fine, why do you ask?

Nothing, I’m your friend, am I not?

Of course you are, why do you think that?

Where have you been?

Places, do you know any of them?

Yes, I do but why go away?

‘Cause when you left, do you think I’d care to stay?

Do you still remember?

Why would I forget?

Do you still care?

Ask yourself, why would I still be upset?

If I stay, will you?

Why would I?

I still love you, do you still feel the same?

I don’t know, but aren’t you tired of playing this game?

I’m sorry, will you forgive me?

I already did, why still ask?

Then why won’t you give us a shot?

Don’t you remember, between the two of us,

you were the first one to give up…

*July 19, 2011

some things are not worth repeating

Padangat taka asin Dai mo ini Aram

Padangat taka asin dai mo ini aram

Masakit puonan kun pan-o nagpuon

Ining kabuahan na mayong padumanan.

Padangat taka asin dai mo ini aram

Makulog sa boot pero tinitios

Nin huli ta dai pwede, dai nanggad.

Minaduman ako sa lugar na pirmi

Mong dinudumanan, sa paghuna

Na yaon ka, sakuyang maaabutan.

Asin pagnahiling na an saimong lalawgon

An sakuyang puso garo nang pinagharapag

Minakaskas an pulso asin pirmi an ngirit.

Padangat taka asin dai mo ini aram

Na kan ika nagkahilang, garu na akong 

Dai mapan-o, kudi mayo man maginibo.

Padangat taka asin dai mo ini aram,

Kan ika nag-istorya manunggod saiya,

Pigpugol ko sana an pagturo kan sakong mga luha.

Dai ako nagtaram, tigdangog taka sana

Tighalat matapos an dai matapos-tapos 

Na istorya; saka ako naghibi, na mayong nakahiling.

An luha maski paturuon mo pamatanga

Dai minahali an kulog, padagos an pagsakit

Maski mayo nang minaturo.

Padangat taka siguro maski pan-o saimong narisa,

Na gusto taka pirming kaiba asin kaisturyahan,

Kun yaon ka, akong pirming maogma.

Padangat taka siguro maski pan-o saimong narisa

Kan kinaputan mo an sakuyang kamot

Mayo akong ibang nahiling, kundi saminong mata.

Asin kan kita nagkaibahan kan mga banggi

Na naglaom akong dai na matapos, mayo akong

Pagsulsol, mayo akong ibang ginusto kundi an mapasaimo.

Padangat taka asin dai mo ini aram

Ika na sakuyang pinamibi sa Kagurangnan

Ika na dai nakakaaram.

Ako na sana an marayo ngani nakanuod malingaw

Malingawan ining sakong pagpadangat

Malingawan ka...

Asin ining pagkamoot na sakuyang sinusurat,

Ilulubong ko na sa kahararuman kan daga

Padangat taka, ngonyan aram mo na.

ENGLISH TRANSLATION:

I love you and you do not know this

It hurts but I have to endure

Because we can’t be, should never be.

I go to the places where you

Always go, hoping you’ll be there

And I’ll meet you.

And when I finally see your face

My hearts feels like it is being chased

My heart beats fast and I can’t help but smile.

I love you and you do not know this

That when you got sick, I was so worried

But I couldn’t do anything.

I love you and you do not know this

When you told me about her

I tried to stop my tears from falling.

I didn’t speak, I just listened

I waited for you to finish your never-ending

Story; then I cried when no one can see.

Even if you cry yourself to sleep

The pain wouldn’t just go away, the hurt continues

Even if no tears would fall anymore.

I love you and you might know this

That I always want to be with you, talk to you

Whenever you’re there, I am always happy.

I love you and you might know this

When you held my hand

I didn’t see anything but your eyes.

And during those nights we were together

Which I hoped would never end , I never had any

Regrets, I didn’t wish for anything else but to be yours.

I love you and you do not know this

You, whom I’ve prayed for

You, who do not know.

I’ll just be the one to go away so I would learn to forget

Forget about this love

Forget about you.

And this love I am writing about

Will be buried beneath the earth

I love you…now you know this.

 *July 14, 20011

but i won't

Cause everytime I see you, i fall a little harder,
And it doesn't make sense at all...
I try to convince myself that you're not worth it,
And i end up trying to convince myself more and more.


*July 5, 2011

yeah

shot

I can feel my shirt starting to smell of

Cigarette smoke and the late night breeze

Four souls being consumed by their desires

And we sat beside each other; and the bottles

Landed on our table, but not like it used to.

Something’s different, something’s missing

But I start to pour that bitter liquid

Down my throat; it felt like a rush

On a windy day, like a rain that came

But was never expected, like the way

You suddenly grabbed and held my hand.

One bottle, two bottles, three bottles

We continued to gobble down those drinks

And everything else we’d rather forget,

Everything else waiting for freedom.

I steal a glimpse of you; I wanted to

Tell you right there and then: For all of the drinks

And the nights that we’ve had together,

Can we give us a shot?

 *July 2, 2011 

you remind me of October nights

Unless

Blue walls, white boards, blue and black chairs

It’s been raining for three hours now so we stay

Inside the comfort of these rooms, but our feet

Remain wet, shoes soaked in puddles of

Water; Where did we go?

Only you and I know about our adventures

We are the story you’ll never find in

Movies; books can never explain how we felt.

And the nights that betrayed me are as

Hazy as the skies now; the rain has stopped

And so must I.                       

*June 30, 2011 (Philstar Rm.2)

is this the end of the line?